I have a deep history of trauma but I feel mine looks a little different than what’s usually talked about when it comes to “feminine healing.” A lot of womb work tends to be connected to sexual or religious trauma, especially in Utah and the communities here. But my trauma comes from medical trauma.
When I was four years old, I was fully conscious during a kidney reflux procedure where they put a catheter in my urethra and filled my bladder with four liters of fluid. Four liters. I was four. That was the worst pain I’ve ever felt in my entire life — I was in so much pain I couldn’t even see straight. They handed me a purple teddy bear to hold, and that was that.
Because of that, I’ve carried a lot. I have PTSD reactions, and when super invasive or medical topics about the vagina come up, my body goes into stress-induced seizures.
Working with Mary was the first time I’ve felt like I could move through a piece of that trauma- without leaving my body. I know there’s still more to process, but something big shifted. I released something, and I felt so much safer in my body afterward.
Words may not fully be able to describe my experience but , I highly recommend Mary and her services. As women/ divine feminine beings/ caregivers , we have this natural instinct to pour into everyone else. But there’s another side to that coin: we get to create that same kind of care for ourselves, too.
We get to let it fill us and to allow it to come from within, from that same sacred space. That is the greatest gift someone can show you Your own power. - Liv D
